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Our Joy After Loss: Welcoming Ellie Marie

Every second of every day babies are being born. The sheer commonality of delivering a child should render it rather unremarkable and yet it is THE most remarkable thing ever. Every mother carries her own story of how her baby was brought into the world – be it a natural…

The Highs and Lows of Pregnancy After Loss

I have some news to share. I am going to have a baby. I should really say – WE are going to have a baby: myself, my husband and our kids Lucas and Rowan. We are in this together. We are happy and hopeful yet totally anxious and worried all…

One Year Since Losing Lachlan: Lessons in Grief

“I talk about him constantly, not because I’m constantly living in pain.  I’m not anymore, but in my world, this is my normal, and I’d rather live honestly and out loud.  Joy, love, happiness and gratefulness are my everyday, but so are death…

Taking Steps of Healing with the Butterfly Run

The butterfly can be seen as a symbol of transformation, and of the unending cycle of life and death. For many, myself included, butterflies are a symbol of the children we have lost. Four months have passed since we lost our son Lachlan. Over that time, I have had so…

Loving and Losing Lachlan

Even when you know it’s coming, even when you think you’re as prepared as you’re ever going to be…nothing can really prepare you for losing your baby. I have documented the loss and grief that has accompanied my latest pregnancy in previous…

How Do You Prepare Yourself For the Loss of a Baby?

“Some things in life cannot be fixed, they can only be carried.“ I recently read this quote in the book Option B, by Sheryl Sandberg. It is something that has stuck with me during what I can only describe as the toughest 7 months of my life. Back…

Making Picture Perfect Memories with Magenta Photo Studio

It’s crazy how much kids change over such a short amount of time. Looking back on photos of me from a year ago and I basically look the same. But looking back at a photo of your four year old, or two year old from a year ago…

Sharing My Heartbreak: Talking About Miscarriage

I admittedly haven’t been as active on my blog this summer as I would like to be. And the truth is, the subject of this post is not what I started this blog for. My blog is generally a place where I share my favourite spots in Ottawa…